clinical blues (acoustics)

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when u think ur done but ur not

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released June 21, 2015

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Track Name: i brought you a sweater (stoned)
never mind the weather
because i bought you a sweater,
we knew it wouldn't be long
until i wrote you a song

don't you worry that it's cold
you've got a heart made of gold
we knew it wouldn't be long
until my free time was gone

never mind that i'm sick
we can make through this
i knew it wouldn't be long
until every thing good was gone

now i'm alone in the dark
my feelings won't fade
and i can't be sick
while you fade away

so don't you worry that it's cold
you've got a heart made of gold
i knew it wouldn't be long
until my free time was gone

don't you worry that it's winter
the colder the better
when we face the cold
we'll remember the days of gold

don't you worry that it's cold
you've got a heart made of gold

don't you worry about the weather
because i brought you a sweater

don't you worry about the weather
because i brought you a sweater
we knew it wouldn't be long
until my free time was gone
and i wrote you a song.
Track Name: in bloom (suicide tuesday)
tired and wired
tired and wired
i'm in my bed
you shouldn't feel bad darling
because it's all in your head

and you know that it's not your fault
when you lie down in flowers of sorrow
you lay out when you were a kid
and you thought you could forget but not forgive

and everything is so different now
and we don't know how
things turned out to be
this way

and i'm gonna pack my bags
and i'm gonna leave
i'm gonna go to place that i'd rather be
and i won't be scared
just to be

i remember when i said
that i was scared
and you said there's another world out there
i'm gonna find where there is

and i hope there's a place where the grass will grow
and shine on my face until i glow
and i won't be scared to be
what i know is in me

and i'll lay down all my anger
and i'll lay down in my bed
when you're scared darling
don't forget
that it's all in your head

lay down in a field of sorrow
let go of every tomorrow
drink flowers in your coffee
i won't be sad if you forget me

i'm gonna find a place that i remember

and i hope there's a place where the grass will grow
and shine on my face until i glow
and i won't be scared to be
what i know is in me

and when i check out darling don't you cry
because it's only a temporary goodbye
you're gonna see me someday soon
when the flowers are in bloom

and when i check out darling don't you cry
because it's only a temporary goodbye
you're gonna see me someday soon
when the flowers are in bloom
Track Name: i don't know
my mother can't look me in the eye
ever since i, ever since i
said i wanted to die

it's not my fault
i feel most at home
sitting by rob and oscar pulling cones

i go to sleep with my teeth clenched
i fight the fury
i try to resist

god i'd love to cook up a nice bowl of smack
i'd love to have another xanax attack
but everyone has their eyes so close on me
i don't think i can't breathe

talking to my friends
everything is a waste of time
i got nothing
i even broke my mind
i can't think
i can't speak
i'm just a lonely freak x3

and i miss everything that i have ever
had the chance to remember
had the chance to remember
Track Name: building nothing out of something
i put on my new shoes this morning
and the leather was hard and tough
and i cried out a little bit
but a little bit is never
enough

and i put on my damp jacket
and the wind hit my face
on the way to the train
and i whispered little words
that formed the phrase
that i wanted you to never hear me
say

and my shoelaces are untied
like the seams on my coat
and i
am drowning in my clothes

where is
my
soul?

where is
my
soul
i sold it
to the people with the money i owe

and all of my friends
are as good as dead
they bleed like ink
from a page
and what comes out the other side
is a story
that's been told a million times
and no one
wants to hear

and i tried
say i was sorry
the morning
for the sins i've committed
but i got caught
looking at my reflection in the mirror
as it passed

i am a stranger in my own
home
i got nothing
but empty sheets
sold my soul
to the people that i owe
i am a ghost
i float under sheets
of every person
that
i meet.

i built nothing
out of
something
Track Name: i'm sorry (in re: your letter)
i'm sorry that i ruined
your chance of being loved
i'm cynical to the point of destructive

i am a liar and a fiend and an addict
i have too many faces
to keep up with

i never thought i'd live to see
myself switch to abuser
from abusee

most of the lines that i have written
have become
lines that i've done
in bathroom stalls
until my nose is red
like the rising sun

and i am no one
and i am nothing
so don't let me hurt you

i am no one
i am nothing
so don't let me hurt you anymore
don't give me that

i'm destined to be a piece of shit
caught in the shoe
of a life i threw away

blood in my sink
running pink like the rings around my face
blood in the sink
running pink like the ring around my face.
Track Name: october 21st (cold)
i put your shirt on

and it’s too big around my body

i wanna be a ghost

i wanna drown in your clothes

and it doesn’t smell like you

and i wish it did

because i don’t remember how you smell

or much of anything

and all i remember is oct. 21st

you never came to pick me up

and you’d never been late before

and i sat on my friends couch

with her brother watching wrestling

and i couldn’t shake the feeling

something was terribly wrong

i woke up this morning

doused in my own vomit

i don’t why i am what i am

but i put a flower in the sea

and it made me miss your body

it made me miss your body

i’m standing on the edge of this dark pier

and there’s nothing to remind me

of the way you moved

or the way you held your body

and these shining lights just make me mad

because i miss you

even when i say i don’t

i put a flower in the sea

i wish i could feel your body

today i put a flower in the sea

i wish i could feel your body

but every day it gets further away from me
Track Name: planning funerals and laughing too hard at jokes that aren't funny
remember when you laughed about growing old?
as if you thought it was some kind of joke
i don't wanna see
a light inside your eyes
that is gone when tomorrow
pours in with sunlight

and i won't make it to your funeral
because i'll be too busy planning mine
we are not destined to die
we're destined to live
our whole damned
lives

and i won't make peace
with this
because i, i'm so mad
of all the things to take you out of here
why couldn't you have picked
the one
that took my hand
Track Name: to forgetting how to love and knowing when to quit
when i was seven
i killed myself
i swallowed a box of pills
then i walked outside and died

and that was not the first
time
his hands on my thighs
and it wouldn't be the last time
i'd die just to rise

lying on the grass
the world was ringing in my ears
and now today i sit beside you
haunted by the same fears
Track Name: hymn
i understand that
you can't love me anymore

i'm always high
i always lie
and you deserve the honest thing.

but when i crawl into bed
you are the last though that fills my head
i'm sorry i spent so long scared
but it's all menial now

i lost myself
so don't believe in me
don't believe in me
i lost myself

you are the one
you were the one
i guess it's time to let it go
Track Name: home
i won't get clean
and i will have fun
never been scared
of staring into the sun
i will take you home to my bed
let you choke on what we've said

i am desperate
i am stoned
i am searching for a stupid home
some place
i am yet to know

and i don't think anything will save me
as long as I've got blood to bleed
take the pills
a sick reprieve

and i won't miss anything at all
when i drown on my own floor
wrap me in white sheets
a purity i'm yet to see.
Track Name: it seems i'm sinking (oh well, nevermind)
i'm not as unrepentant
as i seem to be
i believe in god
late at night
when i want something to save me.

and i talk big
but i've got no plans
all i want now
is to dissolve
the dust and the sand

i'm waiting for my sailboat
to take me back to the sea
i want to sink
no i don't

i don't know
anymore

shivering in the heat
body buckles
in defeat
i'm much too warm
burning in my core

and everything i say i love
is just a lie
because i can't win
hosting fake passions
so that i have something
that i can
believe in
Track Name: i'm quitting smoking for yr parents
i’m quitting smoking for yr parents
so they don’t think that i’m a bad kid,
i swear i wasn’t always a scumbag
i didn’t mean to turn out so bad.

i am ashamed of the person that i am,
i regret the things i’ve done but i’d still do them again.
and in my destructive descent
i’ve met the best people i could’ve ever met.

i’m destroying their lives one by one
and the irony is i’ll be the only one left when it’s all done.

i know how i need to change,
but i’m too scared so i guess i’ll stay the same.
i am sorry what i’ve done and the things i’ll do.
i’m sorry i couldn’t get clean for you.